Knowing Oblivion

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 22:57:56 GMT

18 HOURS

Im countin down...

Im so ready...

Ill see yall at Thanksgiving or before good luck to all!
Ill miss you!

xo, kel

Roanoke College
Campus Box 279
Salem, VA 24153

Room Phone- 540-375-5448
Cell- 410-322-7215

Im OUT!!!

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 20:54:30 GMT

Im not sure that Im going to continue this live journal thing. I think bc anyone who needs to know that dtails of my life can just call me.
410-322-7215...
I feel like in college I will have no time left.
But what do I know.
I have about 5 days left and Im fully packed...still need a couple things from target-but Im like Jules, Im so stinkin ready to go.
So, I will continue to check my friends' profiles, but Im thinkin Im gonna stop except for random entries which will probably consist of 3 moods-Happy, angry/sad, or bored.
I guess that thats is all I do now. Im bored as hell.

Okay_ I miss yall...adn Sarah, dear, your hair is adorable and take it from the queen of terrible haircuts-yours looks good and if you dont like it (I wake up every morning and tell myself this-It will grow back!!)

Love yall.

5 DAYS!!!!!!!!

Although-I must admit Im nervous as hell...what if ppl think Im too weird or too quirky or too dorky or not preppy enough. What if I dont fit in...Add "worried" to my emotion list. Crap.

Sun, 14 Aug 2005 23:43:05 GMT

Okay-
So the 1st have of my Bday was great....that counts for something..eh?

Anyways...My cell Number is....

(1)410-322-7215

I do have a limited number of min and the first time I screw up I will not have a phone, but I officially have a cell now.

Thats a bout all....

Im startin to get nervous about Roanoke.

10 days.

friends

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 21:37:17 GMT

I look at it like this...if someone wants to keep in touch-great, I am all for it.
But if people dont want to, just ignore em and Ill get the message.
No matter how much they mean to me now...if they dont keep in touch-I get it.
Ill move on.
So, Im movin on...right..
*cough*Michael*cough*

On the bright side-Im legal tomorrow!!
Whoo-hoo-'bout time, eh?

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 21:34:56 GMT

UNTITLED

I was warned
all is fair in love and war
i let this go on for too long

what do i say
oh, there goes another mistake
as I wait for another to come along

I flirt w/the memories
that brought me down
then bury them deep and
take a good good look around

Only to see that nothing is quite as it seems
Only to see that nothing is quite as it seems

I tripped over the space
that put right and wrong in their place
and my mind is tellin me I told you so

I walked the tight rope over disaster
and now, that this is over
my heart is tellin me to let this go

I flirt w/the memories
that brought me down
then bury them deep and
take a good good look around

Only to see that nothing is quite as it seems
Only to see that nothing is quite as it seems

Would I be fickle
if I let this slip away
w/out a second glance
w/out any shame
Its from the ground up
that I begin to rebuild
all the memories
that brought me to this standstill

I flirt w/the memories
only to see
that nothing is quite as it seems...

ANY ADVICE ON TITLES??
WHAT DO YALL THINK...TOO CORNY?

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 21:02:36 GMT

no time-
but to those that know what I am talking about, I am staying in Maryland as usual until I leave the 26th for Roanoke...dissapoining, but managable...

Stuff

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 20:03:11 GMT

So,
I have been busy hanging out with Rachel, who just got home last Sat.

Blah, I am ready to go to school. Not much is new on the Kelly's life scale. I am sad bc I wont be able to make anotehr trip to NC before school begins, but I tried, eh?

Okay, Hope everyone is well.

Oh- My college address:

Kelly Bowen
Roanoke College
Campus Box 279
Salem, VA 24153

Phone in room is:

540-375-5448

Im in Marion Hall, room 302.
Yeah man...cool....not that anyone knows what I am talking about. Ok. Im done, really....

Jules-I sent your letter today. thank you for the charm, I love it!!

NEW SONG

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 18:39:22 GMT

I MISS YOU

You say you want the truth
Truth is I miss you
and I dont know how
Ive gotten so far w/out you
Ive second guessed my every move
wondering what you'd think
and now that we're at the end of the road,
is there any hope for you and me?

You say, leave it up to fate,
but I say...

What about now?
Why should we wait?
What about now?
I cant let you slip away.

I've been running in circles, trying to forget you,
But I cant help, But miss you...

Would it drive you away,
If i told you what I've done?
Would it lift you up at all,
if I told you that you were the one?
and Even after all this time,
I cant seem to let you get away
the thought of you w/someone else,
is enough to make me go insane.

You say, leave it up to fate,
but I say...

What about now?
Why should we wait?
What about now?
I cant let you slip away.

I've been running in circles, trying to forget you,
But I cant help, But miss you...

You say, leave it up to fate
You say, you want the truth,
and I say, what about now,
'cause the truth is
I miss you

Grounded

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 16:05:37 GMT

Bummer- I am grounded until July 21...
We leave for NC the 23rd, come back the 29th.

I have to stay in a hotel w/the parents-Blah. Luckily, I can still see my friends, although it will be harder to arrange.

Blah.

Aug 13 I turn 18-(FINALLY) and I am thinking of just walking out then-No joke.

I am ready to go.

On a better note, I have made peace with my hair and it doesnt look that bad if I pull it up.
That is the best I can do with good news.

My phobia

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 01:22:31 GMT

I fucking hate hair dressers......or, on a more honest note, I am scared of them.

I went to get my hair cut like a month ago and although the cut was nice, it wasnt what I wanted, so on sat, I went to go get it "fixed"....BAD, HUGE, idea.

She gave me a mullet-not only that, but a very very short mullet-I am not exagerrating. I nearly cried. This happened when I first moved here from NC the woman (not the same one but at the same place) cut my hair so that the longest layer came down to the middle of my ear....

So, Katie came with me as moral support and as soon as I was done freaking out about this one, we went to her hair STYLIST and she fixed it so that whem it grows out, it will look decent. Thank god for her and Katie.

SO, I can pull it into a Ponytail that measures about an inch and I have to have at least 3 barettes, but I guess I will deal. I know it seems dumb to waste an entry on hair, but I am pissed and Blah.

NC-July 23/24-30th...

Call me: 410-420-0986

Thanks for listening.

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 21:00:09 GMT

No time eva!!!

Going to work in about 3 minutes...summer is going slow....I am working and sitting on my ass.
I am goin back to NC July 23-30....
I still have summer reading to do.

Nothin is really new...well...a lot is new, but nothing overly interesting...;)

Hope everyone is fantastic...

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 21:24:29 GMT

I am starting to come to terms with everything (hence my song a couple entries down...please comment)...I hate leaving my life at the "time will tell" stage, but it has never failed me.

Speaking of my song...there is a mess up-it is supposed to be, in the 2nd verse..."if TIME could make this dissapear..." Ah well.

So, I am ok...yup...thats all folks...I am simply ok.

And thats alright....

SO, life is not dull, but is confusing, so therefore, I will not write a lot.
Hope everyones summer is great...call me!!!

Cant wait for Roanoke!!- Less than 2 months...Finally.

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 21:20:33 GMT

You Are A Poplar Tree

People tend to look up to you, and it's a bit lonely at the top.
Inside, you are not always self confident, but you show great courage.
Mature and organized, you are reliable in any situation.
You tend to have an artistic or philosophical outlook on life.
You are very choosy in love and take partnership seriously.

OKAY- SO no pic...this is my celtic horoscope...cool

DO yall agree???

New Song

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 01:25:45 GMT

SLIDE

We had it all, we had everything
But the world disagreed
and we were left to hide.
As the burden falls, and our future slips,
I have to remind myself to let this slide.
Id like to see you, coming running after me,
Dont you, Let me go,
Dont you let me walk out quietly.

Somehow, you and I, we know, that this is right.
(b/c) We would spend too much time, speaking in riddles and rhyme,
and for that, we have got to let this slide.

We all know that life's not fair
and if only I could make this dissapear,
Id be just fine
But give me a minute to think,
and my world slips from underneath,
and I know, That I have got to let this slide.
Id like to see you, come running after me,
But I know, that I have got to let this go,
There's no way out, easily.

Forgive me, for letting you down, this wasnt how it was supposed ot be,
It just got too hard.
Forgive me, for being weak, We managed to gain everything,
and I let it fall through my arms
And the world refuses to agree
and for that, I have to walk out quietly,
Otherwise, we'd spend all our time,
speaking in riddles and rhyme,
and for that, I have got to let this slide.

Somehow, you and I, we know, that this is right.
And somehow, we have got to let this slide.

Just let it Slide....

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 15:52:03 GMT

Blah-
Things are hectic and my brain and my heart just are about to burst....Hopefully I can handle all of this and no one will get hurt....

Don't ask...

Summer is okay-It is going by too slow....I am ready to go off to school.

Feelin Better

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 20:47:40 GMT

I have come more to terms what exactly it is that I am feeling, which has made my confusion from my last entry a lot more bearable.
Home is where the heart is.
'Nough said.
Thank you to those who have made me feel at home.

Mixed Up

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 17:58:50 GMT

So, NC has been ablast so far. sarah and I have had so much fun. It really hurts to pack up, so I thought that Id take a break and write a little bit.

I was suprised on how hard it was to go back. How out of place I felt...not just in NC, but also it was a reminder on how out of place I feel in Maryland as well...I always thought that I belonged in NC, and last night at the quinndig, it didnt feel like it. I cant put it into words. I am dissapointed on a level that I havent been before.

I am also worried about a certain person. No details, but all around worried and confused.

I just saw a bunny outside....they are so cute...I am so ADD sometimes...

Anyways, I know that I sound depressed, but I love it here and Sarah's friends are awesome and it has been great to be back. Sarah is just amazing and its been a great trip.

I leave tomorrow for humid boring Maryland...oh joy...not. But Julie, Sarah and I are going to the park, so that should be fun.

Overall, Hakuna matata...I have loved being back.

THE NEXT WEEK

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 00:54:58 GMT

I am going to NC tomorrow!!!!!
Whoo hoo!!!!!!!

I will be back on the 12th of june...

I probably wont be able to check live journal until I get back, so leave me comments and such, but be patient for me to get back to you.

BS-you are remarkable...I <3 u!!

I have just been chillin, but my laundry has been in the washer for like 8 hours, so i better go get it into the dryer...

That is about all I have done today...Oh, got some Chocolate devotion from cold stone....MMMMMMM BOY!!

I need to pack and get ready.

Hope everyone is having fun.

<3, Me

mosquitos

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 14:16:53 GMT

WHO THE HELL DECIDED THAT MOSQUITOS SHOULD BE ALLOWED TO LIVE??????

The weirdest spot for a mosquito bite is a finger....why would they want my finger???

The worst spot is...well...they are all bad...

I am just itchy, so I thought I'd rant.

THE END.

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 12:29:39 GMT

OKay-so know I know that 3 awesome people read this and now since I am discovering some awesome NC people who keep up with live journal, I guess I will drudge on through this.

SO, I go to NC TOMORROW....I cannot wait to hang with Sarah and see Davidson again for the first time in 2 years!!!!!

I am a little nervous though. I miss everything about it. It will be hard to leave and if I see anyone other than Sarah, hard to not hug them and than start yelling at them for not keeping in touch as well as Sarah and I did. I guess I can't judge too much. Sarah has been my best friend since 7th grade. She has been through thick and thin with me, even when I was in Maryland. Also, I understand the busy-ness, as I wasn't always the best letter writer around. But, it is all around frustrating...I know that it is going to be very hard to leave again...especially sarah.

And mike...we always thought we'd be together, but I have changed so much and circumstances have changed as well...for the sake of my privacy, I will leave it at that.

AH well...If at first you don't succeed, try again...Roanoke is like 45 min from NC, so seeing Sarah more often shouldn't be a problem...and seeing whoever else is convinced they still like me just as much as before. I am so open to keeping in touch with anyone, so hopefully I won't get too nevous.

blah blah blah

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 05:18:29 GMT

I love VaBeach...and I love my mom, but I am so restless right now. I should be sleeping, and I am tired enough to sleep, I just dont want to. I am thinking about stopping this thing...unless people actually read it. If you read this and care at all, please leave me a comment. I am not whining, I do this so my friends will know what is up with me and I am wondering if it is just a complete waste of time,seeing that i don't hang out with a lot of you and for the people that i do hang out with, I don't need a live journal for them to know what is going on with me, I won't be offended if you don't care, just let me know so I don't waste my time. This is no longer therapeutic, as it once was..I use it more as a connection to my unreachable friends and I guess I am just wondering if I am reaching anyone.
Hope everyone is doing great anyways.

VABeach

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 14:18:46 GMT

Hey-
I am in Va Beach with my mom and I am having fun...In a couple daYS I am off to NC to watch a good friend of mine graduate. I haven't been there since I moved north, so that should be interesting. I will probably end up getting my accent back so anyone who is planning on speaking to me this summer-dont make fun...
Hope everyone is having fun...be careful...
Ok, well, Life is slow and as of right now, I like it like that.

GRADUATION

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 01:06:31 GMT

so, I haven't written anything for a while and I don't intend to write a lot now. Congrats to everyone that is graduating and congrats to everyone else for surviving this year. Thanks to those that have stuck by me. If anyone wants to keep in touch...I mean anyone...I am so open to it...my email is:

kmbowen@roanoke.edu

My number is
410-420-0986 (leave a message)

Thanks again. Congratulations.

rumors

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 16:08:52 GMT

so people are spreading rumors and I don't like it...people should mind their own business and if something is bothering them, they should bring it up with that person. People-stop talking about stuff that you guys don't know for fact...blah

Feelin' Good

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 13:49:47 GMT

So, everything is awesome...for the most part...there are some things that could make it better, but at this very moment I am happy.
Quite a shocker that I am on Prom Court....I truly didn't expect it...
So...Not much to say...I am not going to start ranting about the things that are annoying me right now...such as prom...I kinda don't want to go. It is such a pain.
Anyways.
Hope everyone is well.
1 1/2 months to go seniors.
I am thrilled.